What does woman want?

These are the research questions I've outlined in the current incarnation of my PhD proposal:

My initial avenue of enquiry was to weigh the normalising function of certain therapeutic, self-help approaches against opposing feminist aims of radicalism and liberation. I was asking whether or not ‘happiness’ is something feminist women (should) want. Now I realise I also need to ask if ‘liberation’ is something women should strive toward.[1] One could argue that feminism critiques the norms and ideals of patriarchy, whilst at the same time setting up a new (and arguably, equally restrictive) set of norms to which (feminist) women must adhere and conform.[2] In wading through the conflicting pressures to be both an individual and to approximate the norm (so as to be identified as part of a group and to have a sense of belonging in the world) – I must ask which set of standards – those of feminism or mainstream women’s culture industry – should I follow and what are the points of connection between them? What happiness is there to be had in approximating norms or evading them? What relationship to power can be achieved in identifying with norms verses defying them?[3] Once women have (some) power (or happiness or autonomy) how do we then relate to one-another?[4] Since independence, autonomy and self-determination are valorised tropes for feminism and self-improvement, what value do interdependence, relationality and solidarity have?   

                Self-improvement is often judged as antithetical to socio-political transformation, is this really a simple binary or does feminist agency/ethics require a two-pronged approach incorporating both individual and group work? Suggesting that a woman needs to work on herself might be construed (by feminists) as blaming the victim, which leads me to another double-whammy question: Why do I feel the urge to self-improve and why do women more generally seem to be in need of a makeover? What is at stake in these transformations? Demystified of the commonly-held assumption that self-transformation reveals the authentic inner self and unlocks one’s true potential, what is the value in discovering one’s inner clichés and then divulging them?[5] What if I take myself seriously as a cliché or as a joke? Once the idea of the subject as masterful, rational and coherent is debunked, what use do self-transformations have?

                The private becomes the public (or the personal becomes the political and juxta-political) in feminist consciousness raising sessions and through mainstream media representations of women’s lives.[6] Confessional modes of address are ubiquitous in these varying contexts, which leads me to wonder which modes of self-representation or truth-telling are more or less effective in taking up a position to power?[7] Are certain confessional modes more helpful than others in navigating personal/political ethical conundrums? Because I use humour and parody in my work, I have a vested interest in questioning how comedy can be used to address serious issues of socio-political inequality. How might humour and other ‘light’ affects reveal complexities that earnestness might elide?



[1] Foucault comments on the problem of creating an ethics of liberation, stating: “[r]ecent liberation movements suffer from the fact that they cannot find any principle on which to base the elaboration of a new ethics.” Foucault, Michel, “On The Genealogy of Ethics: An Overview of Work in Progress”, The Foucault Reader, ed. Rabinow, Paul, London: Penguin Books, 1984, p. 343. Cressida J. Heyes also emphasizes this point from a Foucauldian perspective: “Foucault resists… the notion that any political thinker can recommend a specific programmatic approach to liberation, or indeed that ‘liberation’ is a desirable goal.” Heyes, Cressida J., Self-transformations, p. 123.

[2] For evidence of this see Lori Gottlieb’s chapter “How Feminism Fucked Up My Love Life” in Marry Him, The Case For Settling For Mr. Good Enough, London: Penguin Books Ltd., 2010, pp. 43-60.

[3] Lauren Berlant states: “The woman who was adequate to [women’s culture industry’s] version of normal femininity was as powerful as a feminist would aspire to be.” Berlant, Lauren, The Female Complaint: The Unfinished Business of Sentimentality in American Culture, Durham: Duke University Press, 2008, p. 178.

[4] Mariana Valverde points to the necessity of asking this question, stating: “feminists, caught up as we have been in a decades-long crusade to ‘empower’ ourselves and other women, have not thought a great deal about the problems of having too much power.” Valverde, Mariana, “Experience and Truth-telling in a Post-humanist World: A Foucauldian Contribution to Feminist Ethical Reflections”, Feminism and the Final Foucault, Chicago: University of Illinois Press, 2004, p. 86.

[5] Cressida J. Heyes objects to the claim that “the self has a unique authenticity; that to know oneself – a central project for the modern self – is to know the nature of this individual” and goes on to posit that “[t]he things we are expected to find out about ourselves, however, often turn out to be clichéd”. Heyes, Cressida J., Self-transformations, pp.3-4.

[6] In the ‘Critical Context’ section of this paper I will mention again in greater detail Lauren Berlant’s discussion of women’s culture as a ‘juxta-political’ space. Berlant, Lauren, The Female Complaint, pp. 2-3.

[7] In positing that confession is an example of truth-production “thoroughly imbued with relations of power”, Foucault describes the one who listens as “the master of truth”. Foucault, Michel, The History of Sexuality Part I: The Will To Knowledge, London: Penguin Books, 1998, p. 60. 

My mind is a muscle...

... and I've been exercising it by writing. This is the introduction to the current incarnation of my PhD proposal: 


Before I started making live performances I had never actually used my voice in my work. I had performed alone in front of a camera and lip-synched to appropriated soundtracks from TV shows; used my muscles to mimic other people’s body language or to match Hollywood choreography; I also re-enacted iconic gestures from feminist performance art. When I look back at my evolution and the steps I took to become a performance artist, I see it as a succession of escalating risks taken in order to build up the confidence to be me. I see a parallel in my motivations to become a performer and the intentions behind much of what I define as feminist performance art; to ensure that a woman’s voice is heard, that her perspective is made visible and her story is told. Likewise, the narrative of my career, as I like to tell it – that I have been transformed into a new and improved, more confident and poised, performance-artist version of me[1] – also bears a striking resemblance to the phenomenon of the makeover, which is ubiquitous in the mainstream culture industry geared at women.[2] In my conceptualisation of my work and my understanding of both feminist performance art and the pop cultural narrative of the makeover, there is an appeal to a notion of agency and an authentic inner self which should be analysed.[3] My research project therefore entails locating and evaluating the concepts of agency and selfhood inherent within feminism/feminist art and the self-transformation narratives of popular culture in order to propose a novel theory of feminist agency and an accompanying code of ethics.



[1] Recently I was invited to give lectures on my work at Sheffield Hallam University and Nottingham Trent University, but instead of providing a straight-forward artist’s talk, I delivered my performance-art lecture “Performance Art Can Change Your Life For The Better”. This motivational speech conveys the story of my personal transformation through various identifications with role models such as Judy Chicago and Sex and The City protagonist Carrie Bradshaw. Borrowing conventions from pop culture makeovers, my powerpoint presentation includes two self-portraits showing me ‘before’ and ‘after’ I became a performance artist.

[2] Theorist, Rosalind Gill argues that “a makeover paradigm constitutes postfeminist media culture” and that “to a much greater extent than men, women are required to work on and transform the self, to regulate every aspect of their conduct”. Gill, Rosalind, “Culture and Subjectivity in Neoliberal and Postfeminist Times” in Subjectivity, 25, 2008, p. 441 and p. 443.

[3] I like to claim that I’ve stripped away layers of shyness, timidity (and citation) to get at the ‘real’ me on stage or, more accurately, in the gallery. Likewise I often think of feminist performance art as women expressing themselves genuinely without having to play a part written by a man. And, as Cressida J. Heyes has elucidated, mainstream self-help culture relies on the false premise that working on the self through dieting, plastic surgery and other disciplinary routines makes visible on the flesh the beauty and goodness of one’s true inner self. Heyes, among many other feminist theorists also elaborates on how problematic this notion of a fixed self is because of its ties to essentialism and its lack of historical and social contextualisation. Heyes, Cressida J., Self-transformations: Foucault, Ethics and Normalised Bodies, Oxford: Oxford University Press, 2007, pp. 4-5.

Recommended Reading: Self-transformations by Cressida J. Heyes

Tuesday afternoon in the library, I happened upon Cressida J. Heyes' book Self-transformations which is really relevant to my doctoral research project with its working title "Feminist Performance Art Can Change Your Life For the Better!?"

Here's a particularly poignant quote: 

"... Western feminism has urged women to look inside to find the authentic and diverse selves patriarchy has denied and suppressed, this very gesture of self-discovery has been deeply implicated in emergent discourses that paradoxically take the disciplined and conformist body as a site of truth reflecting the self within. For women the elusive promise of self-determination often displaces its own radical intent with the poor substitutes of dieting, exercise routines, cosmetic surgeries and makeovers."[1] 

In other words, women's culture industry uses feminist language to convey the misguided notion that outer-beauty reflects our 'authentic' inner selves. I can't help but see this statement reflected in the (should I say 'tragic'?) trajectory of Jane Fonda's career. It also reminds me of Suzanne Somers' opening monologue to her video Think Great, Look Great in which she states that it's important to understand the connection between inner peace and outer beauty. 


[1] Heyes, C. J., 2007, Self-transformations: Foucault, Ethics and Normalized Bodies, Oxford: Oxford University Press, p. 5 

Feminist Art Manifestos

I just attended a short seminar on Feminist Art Manifestos led by Katy Deepwell at the ICA. The list of Feminist (Art) Manifestos she presented is long and makes evident the varying and often contradictory definitions of feminism and feminist art there are in existence. The ideas put forward within these texts are as diverse as their authors, therefore the strategies advocated therein are equally varied. After reading through excerpts from numerous texts, Deepwell suggested that as we continue our research into this phenomenon and read these texts in greater depth, it is useful to question who is being defined as the enemy and who is described as a friend to the cause.

See n.paradoxa's website to find links to feminist manifestos available online.

How To Realise Your Potential

I went to a workshop last night at The School of Life called 'How To Realise Your Potential'. It was run by a man whose vocation is writing for The Sunday Times and whose hobby is to sew his own clothes. When speaking of the latter he said: "I'm all for women breaking through the glass ceiling if they want to, but why is no one urging men to break into haberdashery shops!?" Perhaps the lesson in this statement is that if we seek to fulfill our potential we can go beyond society's expectations for our gender, race, class, sexuality etc. His point in telling us about his venture into craft was to emphasize the importance of taking pleasure in every step of whatever process with which we are engaged. He also quoted Friedrich Nietzsche on this point: "Not every end is a goal. The end of a melody is not a goal." He urged us to celebrate little victories along the way.